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Book Review: A Cross to Kill

December 11, 2019 by Esther Filbrun · Leave a Comment

11 Dec

Hello, friends! I’m back after an extended, yet unintended, hiatus! I’ll have to tell you about my November sometime soon…it was quite the month!

Well, today I have a special treat. Or shall we say, I’m sharing a book that was a special treat to me? I’ve been enjoying some great mysteries lately—just started one this morning, in fact—but I read one back in November that I ended up really enjoying. Not all of it was my favorite, but overall it was great. If you’ve ever read and enjoyed any thriller or suspense novels, I’d suspect you would like it. But first, here’s the back cover copy.

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About the Book:

A Cross to KillJohn Cross is a small-town pastor, bent on leading his flock to follow God’s calling. He’s not the sort of man one would expect to have a checkered past.

But the truth is that the man behind the pulpit preaching to his sheep was once a wolf—an assassin for the CIA. When John decided to follow Christ, he put that work behind him, determined to pay penance for all the lives he took. He vowed never to kill again.

Now someone wants the peaceful pastor to pay for his sins with his own life. And when a terrorist out for revenge walks into the church, John’s secrets are laid bare. Confronted with his past, he must face his demons and discover whether a man can truly change. Can he keep his vow–even when the people he loves are in mortal danger? Will his congregation and the brave woman he’s learning to care for be caught in the cross fire? In the end, his death may be the only sacrifice he has left to offer . . .

Andrew Huff’s thrilling debut is not only a riveting story of suspense, it’s also a deep exploration of the moral quandaries that face those who choose to follow the Prince of Peace in a violent world.

Read the first two chapters, provided by Kregel, by clicking here.

What I Thought:

I really enjoyed A Cross to Kill! During November, I had a lot going on and not a lot of time to read, so with what time I did have, I wanted something fun and engaging. This book fit that criterion perfectly, and I found myself sucked in right away. I enjoyed it so much that I told my brother about it, and he, too, ended up reading the book. I thought it would be fun for you to hear what he had to think about it, so I’ll share his review below.

I felt like this story had some great themes about trying to hold to our convictions and honor the Lord, while still delivering an engaging story. Some parts were unbelievable for me, and I definitely would not want to watch this as a movie, but seeing the main character trying to do what was right was great. The gospel message also came through here, which I appreciated. I don’t know if I would want to read the sequel to the story, because of the amount of violence in here (that was the one part I didn’t enjoy that much), but the mystery and characters and story plotting in general were all superb. If you’re looking for a gripping, fast-paced ride with Christian themes, check this out.

As I mentioned before, I requested a free review copy of this book, and that is the copy both of us read. 🙂

And now, for Elijah’s thoughts (thank you, Elijah!):

Recently my older sister told me about a book that she was reading at the time, giving it high acclaim. “An adventure novel” was her label, and so A Cross to Kill turned out to be.

John Cross, a former CIA member, now pastors a small out of the way congregation belonging to the Rural Grove Baptist Church. The congregation believes that he lost a good government job and that is why he became a pastor, but the truth is that he was one of the CIA’s top field operatives. He still does some work for the CIA, but he desperately wishes to bury most of what he has done deep in the past. All this starts to change with the very last mission he does for the CIA, rescuing an American reporter who was about to be executed by terrorists in Turkey. Though utmost secrecy was kept about the whole matter, Christine Luis remembers too much about her near-death experience and seeks out her savior. When they meet, they realize that there are evil plots afoot, endangering themselves and many of those around them. Can they uncover the truth in time to save the lives of many others? And what about Cross’ past—can he hide his lie to his congregation forever?

When I first heard about the book, I wasn’t too excited about it. But that changed over the course of the first few chapters. The pace started fast and rarely slowed down throughout the book. There were many points I appreciated. Though it doesn’t give a theological explanation in the book, Cross made a stand against killing. Similarly, it doesn’t tell the gospel message as such, but it shows the result of turning to Christ; seeking forgiveness for wrongdoing and a complete turnaround from the old man to the new.

I did not agree with the stand taken in the book on several levels. First of all, after his conversion, he repressed his conscience at several points in the story as far as “borrowing” cars went in order to get to where he needed to go. Another thing I would like to mention is his level of violence. He would not go so far as killing someone—or so he told himself. But a point that was brought out in another book I read recently was that “the road to gross sins is walked with small steps.” Like I mentioned before, he had made a vow against killing which I respect (as much as one can when referring to a fictitious story!) but I still do not like the lead in that direction taken in the story. As a final point, I didn’t appreciate the position of pastor he took in the light that he was just a new Christian. 1 Timothy 3:6 speaks on this subject. I believe that it clearly states that a young believer should not be put in a position of authority in the church. This is a general point, I will admit, not a blanket statement. If a new believer has matured enough in their Christian life I see no problem with him taking the position of pastor. But godly caution should be exercised and I personally think Cross took the position too early in his Christian life.

I appreciate that though he lived a lie throughout the story, he faced up to the truth when it did come out. And the congregation showed a good attitude when they accepted his apology and forgave him.

I was impressed with the story overall. The weaving of the story-lines is masterful and (if you are like me) as soon as you start the book, you won’t want to put it down until you have finished it.

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I’m looking forward to getting back to writing more regularly again! It seems like far too long. For now, what are you reading or have been reading lately? I’ve read some other great books the last while besides this one, so hopefully I can share them with you soon, too!

The Springtime of Joy (Poem)

October 21, 2019 by Esther Filbrun · 2 Comments

21 Oct

The Springtime of Joy (Poem)

It was beautiful, down the valley,
Where the wild gorse grows,
Beautiful in the sunshine,
Where the river’s current flows.

Beautiful in the splendor
Of a clear springy day,
Beautiful as the willow brush
The fresh wind did play.

But deep within the beauty,
Where no eye has ever seen,
Lay the sorrow of a winter,
The drought before the spring.

For once upon a mountain,
The place wilderness only knows,
There lay a pall of darkness
Under winter’s heavy snows.

Cold winds did lash her,
Frigid temperatures in the dark,
And, stumbling, in the gloaming,
Her heart was torn apart.

But now spring has brought her
Out of winter into light,
And the place that once was barren
Now blooms from what was night.

Those who heard her sighing
In the darkness of the past
Are now singing and rejoicing
At the light that’s come at last.

So join with me in praising
If the darkness lingers yet,
For beyond the wings of sorrow
Lies a path to joys unmet.

Dedicated to those who have walked the valley of sorrow, whatever it may be. It’s only the beginning, for beyond the winter, there is the new hope of spring!

 

Book Haul!

October 17, 2019 by Esther Filbrun · 2 Comments

17 Oct

Several weeks ago, perhaps a month ago now, one of my brothers came home from examining the “treasures” at our local green dump (read green very loosely; that’s what it’s supposed to be, anyway!), and told me there were some old books left there. One was even an old fairy tale book! A day or two later, I took my normal walk around the block, and then we stopped to look at the books. What a treasure trove! If I had known what there was, I would have gone down earlier—but even so, I am pretty tickled with what they found!

Book Haul 01

The one of the most interest to me was an old 1880s or 1890s copy of Dr. Chase’s Last Receipt Book and Household Physician. I had never seen a book quite like this before, and there are some interesting recipes in here as well as some fascinating (if not scary!) advice. It’s also interesting to see some of the “new” ideas mentioned here, such as the discovery that milk keeps better if it’s chilled down in ice as soon as it has been milked out—what an amazing invention! 🙂

Book Haul 02

 

Book Haul 03

The top is captioned “A Modern Dairy Scene”. Left bottom is the “recent” Swedish discovery (that is really Yankee!), and right bottom is a method to make butter in hot weather…which I think would make some foul-tasting butter!

Also of interest was an old self-pronouncing dictionary. I was sad that the front cover and front pages are missing, but it’s still interesting to look through the definitions.

Book Haul 04

I love the old page ends on this one!

Then there’s Lily at her Grandmama’s, a delightful old-style picture book, and Northland Heroes written by the author of Haiawatha and containing a story of Beowolf as well as at least one other old story. The “fairy tale book” ended up being a newer (1950s) reprinting of Alice in Wonderland—I’m looking forward to reading this; I’ve been wanting to for a long time! And another newer book called The Whole Person in a Broken World (an interesting title, at least!), which promises to be good if I ever sit down to read it.

Book Haul 05

Far right-top: “Waltham School Standard 2 A. Special Prize Awarded to Mavis Palmer for Neatness.”

I just love the illustrations in Lily at her Grandmama’s!:

Book Haul 06

“…He has entangled his line in the tree, and I do believe he has caught the hook in his own finger.”

The other three books I got that day were not quite as interesting to me, but a friend of mine is interested in them—an old Latin Lessons book, a Latin Primer, and Henri Bué First French Book! Unfortunately, I never learned anything about either French or Latin, but I have a friend who has studied both and taught her daughter elements of both languages, and she’s interested in taking them into her own collection.

Book Haul 07

We gathered all the books we could find, and stuffed them into a reusable yellow shopping bag to carry home. It’s funny how you forget how heavy some things can be—and books must be among the heaviest!—but thankfully it wasn’t too far to haul them home. 🙂

The day after our dump find, then, a bag of several different books was given to us, and at the bottom of the stack was a very old English Bible! It was printed in 1855, and Mom surmised that it must have made a trip across the ocean in the bottom of someone’s sea chest at some stage. There are fascinating old documents in here—I’ll include a few pictures for you.

Book Haul 08

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“Arthur Hayworth. From his affectionate Mother. Surfolk(?), June 8th, 1868.”

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Bible inserts

Left: A prayer to be prayed in England and Wales, and the town of Berwick-upon-Tweed (isn’t that a neat name!?) on 12th August, 1866, because of the cholera and cattle plague. Top right: Several sheets of hymns for gospel services. Bottom right: A Sunday School paper, with the front page a picture of Greenlanders.

In all, this was quite the book haul, and I’m quite pleased about some of the finds we have. Keep your precious old books. You never know what a treasure they might be for the next generation!

What’s the oldest book you have ever owned? Have you rescued books from a dump before?

Able to Give So Much More

October 7, 2019 by Esther Filbrun · Leave a Comment

7 Oct

Don’t you love it when some words just seem to speak out to you when you read them in the Bible? You can read the same passage many, many times—but then in that moment of inspiration, it comes alive to you, and you’re given something to ponder for the next little while.

This morning, it was 2 Chronicles 25:9 that spoke to me:

“And Amaziah said to the man of God, ‘But what shall we do about the hundred talents that I have given to the army of Israel?’ The man of God answered, ‘The LORD is able to give you much more than this.’” (ESV, emphasis mine)

Able to Give Much More

This past week has had a lot of unanswered questions for me as I’ve been seeking God’s direction in my life. I’ve been looking for a new job, but nothing has happened yet in that direction, so while a lot of thought has been put into that, I haven’t seen results (partly because I ended up getting a touch of laryngitis early last week, and couldn’t call about jobs—thankfully that’s over now!).

Whatever I do, I want to serve the Lord. So with this morning’s passage, I was quite encouraged. Whatever happens in this next week, no matter where I end up working (or not!), He is going before me. He is well able to give me much more than I can imagine, and that gives me an immense measure of hope for the future. I know I can rest in His plans for my life.

Whether that ends up being cleaning motels this summer, spending my time here at home with my family, or doing something further afield.

“The LORD is able to give you much more…”

I can just imagine the prophet standing there before the king, having just delivered his message, and hearing the king’s response. He sounds shocked, as he turns on the king with a disappointed tone, “but don’t you know…that the Lord can give you much more than this!? Who is He, anyway?”

I needed that rebuke to my faithlessness this morning. Perhaps you did, too. 🙂 Keep trusting in Him, dear friend!

What verses have stuck out to you lately? What “much more” are you looking for from Him right now?

A Shout-Out to All Creators!

October 4, 2019 by Esther Filbrun · 1 Comment

4 Oct

I don’t remember now how the conversation first started, but I got to talking with my younger brothers about a particularly annoying dragon in one of the stories I’d written. When met with blank faces, I realized they hadn’t ever heard the story, even though I wrote it for my siblings, intending to read it to them later!

My youngest brother immediately started campaigning for me to find it so I could read it to them, so over the last few weeks, I’ve taken time to do that now and then. We’re about half-way through the story now, which is significantly longer than I thought it would be (turns out it’s just under 20,000 words long!).

Shout-Out to Creaters!

There have been two, no, three things that have struck me since starting to read this book aloud:

  1. It’s not a bad thing to wait for a while to read through a book. I thought it was a fairly mediocre story soon after I wrote it, but waiting nearly two years to read it has changed my perspective quite a bit. I don’t know if I’d recommend waiting that long before you even read through your work for the first time, but you get a great perspective on the story—so much is new again!
  2. I can write semi-funny things. I’ve laughed out loud several different times at unexpected happenings, and that’s a really fun discovery!
  3. Some of my story ideas actually work. At least, for me and my family, which is the most important thing to me. I don’t know if this story will ever see the light of day in any editing/publishing roles, but I enjoyed the creation process, and I’m enjoying the sharing process, too.

Are you creating anything right now? Does it feel like absolute junk—like mine did? Keep working at it. Finish it. You never know what kind of gems you might find in your files years down the track!

Keep creating!

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