Several weeks ago, I remember sitting on my bed one morning crying out to the Lord for wisdom. A big decision lay in front of me, either choice likely to change my future. The unrest in my heart was tremendous, and all I could pray was “Lord, which way do I take?” I remember hearing a bird singing outside—one of those beautiful short melodies—and remember the disappointed feeling that washed over me as I realized I couldn’t enjoy it in that moment. I love God’s nature, I do, but at that moment the darkness was so deep that I couldn’t appreciate it the way I would have liked to.
Can you relate? I’m sure you probably can. And while situations like that aren’t fun, they’re also often a great way for the Lord to draw us closer to Him. That time was an intense time of Bible study and prayer for me, and He proved Himself faithful once again. Praise the Lord!
Since then, I’ve come across a few scriptures that have been a huge blessing to me.
4 Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.
5 Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass.
6 And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.
7 Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass.
5 Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.
6 So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.
I’ve spent some time today getting a few reviews up on the website. This job isn’t the most interesting job ever—I’ve been known to complain to a friend before that my hands have to keep busy, but my mind isn’t needed for it! While that is not quite true, since I do have to make sure everything gets put where it needs to go, I do often have a recorded message or music playing in the background so I don’t get too bored. In times like this, I’m thankful for the entertainment and encouragement from guys like the Emmanuel Quartet. I don’t normally listen to a cappella music, but I really appreciate some of the songs in this recording. And it keeps me from going bonkers, so that’s a definite plus!
(Okay; I’ve tried to set the following video to start at the beginning of their 20-minute set, but it doesn’t appear to be cooperating. Since the entire video is 10 hours long, it apparently struggles to calculate 8 hours and 22 minutes exactly. Sorry!)
One of the songs in this set by Emmanuel Quartet (4th or 5th song, I believe) is about how Jesus never fails us…what a beautiful thought!
I took a break from the computer this afternoon, and wandered out behind my sleepout to check up on a chicken’s nest I spotted there yesterday. One of our loose hens decided to make a cozy nest under some of the tussock out there, and right now we need to keep tabs on it so we know when she starts sitting. There are currently six eggs in there, so it’ll probably be another week or so until that happens.
We’re also expecting new chicks from another hen soon. Lambs are starting to pop up all over the place, and we have a new calf. The huge patch of violets behind my house are blooming right now. Everything’s coming alive again—any wonder that my favorite season is spring?
God is so good to us. On the dark days, even when you realize you’re struggling to appreciate the little things that normally give you joy, look to Him. Trust His word—whether you’re making a big decision or a minute one. He’s there watching, guiding, protecting and holding you. He loves you.
I’ll leave you with one final song, one that’s been a great encouragement to me lately.
Ross Taylor says
Esther, I love each and every one of the pertinent scriptures that you list above; they all seem strangely relevant just now, but the last one, Hebrews 13:6 seems to be so relevant right now. Thank you for sharing it. Wouldn’t it be wonderful just to see Christ expressed fully in the church. I guess though, when that happens, and fear is banished, and all is peace forever more, what a day, glorious day that’ll be!! I can’t wait.
I wondered if you might like this little song… https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n7uuYBXzFtM
I enjoyed it, as I did your one on this blog… it was lovely. 🙂
Amen! Thank you for reminding us of the ever faithful promise which came from an ever faithful God. He never fails, and I can rest in that when all around me is failing! Love you, Esther. <3
Ross Taylor says
Hi Esther, I’ve just been at work here, and I’ve been enjoying some of your blog again. I just saw this statement; “I love God’s nature, I do, but at that moment the darkness was so deep that I couldn’t appreciate it the way I would have liked to”.
When you have time, or feel the inclination, I’d love to hear more about your thoughts of what the ‘nature of God’ is. I think that would be an awesome subject for one of your blogs 🙂
I hope that you’re feeling better. Still praying for your recovery.